A Feminine Masculinity Part 2 of 3: The Beloved Disciple and Über-Masculinity

Dearly beloved,

Last week I posted my reply to Rachel Held Evan’s challenge to men to write blogs in response to John Piper’s comment that “God has given Christianity a masculine feel.”  I said a lot in that post, and to a great reception by the internet community!  In short, this was my punch-thesis:

“We should recognize our worship of God in light of who God made us to be.  We worship God regardless of our gender, and we cannot allow our gender to become the norm of how we interpret the Bible, theology, and spiritual experience.  Rather, we must be open to the fullness of how and who God created us to be in the unity of our masculine and feminine identities.”

I ended the post with describing how I have been called to action in light of this:

“In light of my personal experience, I want to break down the strongholds gender has placed on theology and open the floodgates to the experience of God in light of and regardless of gender.”

In this sequel, I want to actually discuss how I practice this.  The last post was lofty; how, then, does what I preach look practically for me?

Fr. John Guiliani’s “Jesus & the Beloved Disciple”

One way is in the example of the beloved disciple resting on Jesus’ chest at the Passover meal. In this scene, and especially in iconography, we have a moment of tenderness and vulnerability. The disciple’s love for and devotion to Jesus is so intense that he cannot help but display it in an intimate and physical. But this love is not entirely selfless; the disciple is looking for reciprocity. In loving Jesus, he too wants to be loved. In leaning on Jesus’ chest, he not only displays love, but asks for it in return.  He wants to be held, to be known, to be felt, and to be loved.

What was the response to this act?  Did the disciples point and laugh at him, calling him names like “sissy” or “homo?” What if Jesus took offense to this, shrugged the disciple off his chest, wailing “Get off me, bro!”? But Jesus does not, and the others do not (though Peter is curious about him in John 21:20-23.  Jealous, perhaps?!).  Jesus accepts the gesture of love, and in allowing the gesture he reciprocates the love here and on the cross.

A transitional aside: We know very little about the disciple whom Jesus loved, and only church tradition identifies him as John the Apostle/Evangelist/Etcetera. However, I’m not even going to begin to explore the identity of the disciple, let alone 1st century CE cultural displays of affection. What matters is what this means to our discussion, and that is that loving Christ transcends gender, and that this love, the kind the beloved disciple shows, directly challenges an over-emphasized masculine identity, or an über-masculinity.

Don Draper of Mad Men: The archetype of uber-masculinity.

To love Christ (yikes, this is another whole discussion to be had!) means to love freely, fully, without abandon, and in total humility.  The sacrificial love Christ lived out, demonstrated, enacted, and realized is a call to love God and one another.  But for the über-masculine male this is difficult, or even impossible.  The über-masculine male is an independent and solitary figure.  He knows what he wants, knows how to get it, and often times does at whatever cost. He is strong, dominating, ruthless, and triumphant.  He is a rock, he is an island, and a rock feels no pain, and an island never cries.

How can the über-masculine male love one another, let alone love another man, and that man being Jesus?  For the über-masculine male, he cannot!  He does not love, but expects others to love him.  He lusts and controls, doing whatever to protect his impenetrable masculine identity. He has made himself to be a god, worthy of worship from “lesser forms” of men and women around him. This identity, my beloved, does not belong, and it is an identity that the love of Christ subverts.

A man who cannot lay his head upon the chest of Christ, who cannot show love in intimate and personal ways, is a shadow of a true man.  However, when one has responded to the love of Christ, a love so powerful, the über-masculine male cannot stand, for his feet of iron and clay are too weak to uphold his identity. Through the selfless and subversive love of Christ, the Son of God, the Son of Man, we find idolatrous identities collapse, and with nothing left of our own to grasp on to, we fall into Christ’s arms, and lay our heads upon his chest.

In a few days, I will provide another example, but in the interim I have a challenge to my readers:

Respond to this post with an example (or examples) of how your worship of God transcends or subverts cultural assumptions of gender identity.


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2 responses to “A Feminine Masculinity Part 2 of 3: The Beloved Disciple and Über-Masculinity

  1. Jake Chaya

    Being of simple mind and obviously out of my leagure discussing theology, doctrine, gender and all the things that occupy the Christian’s mind today, I have always tried to look at God as God and not gender. For our society today, too often we promote an intellectual faith in lieu of a saving and living faith.

    When Jesus rubbed spit on the blindman’s eyes in Mark and then again in John, it was interesting that many observers missed the miracle because they were caught up in doctrine, legalism and theology. In Mark the blind man said he saw trees walking around. I call that being one-eye blind. We see only what we want to see or can comprehend about God. But we only partially see him.

    In John 9 we see the blindman seeing with both eyes and his spiritual blindness is gone. In both instances, God’s identity was blocked because of the poor vision of the men. Once God removed the blindness, they saw God clearly.

    Having been declared cancer-free after a year long battle, God opened my eyes to see Him as God and me as me. My question now for myself is, “Am I man enough to be a man of God?” And for the females, “Are you woman enough to be a woman of God?”

    Remember regardless of gender, alot of people are dying and going to hell and our passion should be about making disciples and minimizing the yeast of the Pharisees and Herod that jesus warned us about. The yeast is government and religious institution thinking.

    I learned that cancer doesn’t care what gender I am, nor does Satan care what gender I am, they both are bent on destroying God’s creation. I write here not to defend or challenge a point as I am not intellectually or spiritual competent to do, but I do have the faith that God will overcome all of our thinking with His thinking. A wise man once told me, “when you think you know everything, you believe in nothing.”

    I choose to know nothing and simply believe in Christ.

  2. It isn’t uncommon for me to shed tears during personal times with God.

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